{ I lie to my therapist }

I don't know how to deal with being hurt.  Is it one of those things you get better at with experience?  Because I don't want to be good at it. 

I also don't understand people and their intentions.  If you let me into your life, into your bed (or where ever we might be) and into your body I will be honest and respectful.  Those aren't even things that should be up for negotiation.  Some people obviously weren't raised right.

Everyone has been hurt.  
We're all damaged. 
You're pain isn't an excuse to cause others pain.  Instead focus your time on healing yourself.

why is love so confusing?

Growing up I always thought love was easy.  That it just happened, you didn't have to work that hard to get or keep it because it just existed, it just was.  I imagined I would find someone who I had a lot in common with and we would just click and that would be that. 

Damn, I was so wrong.

Love is so hard.  Love is so dangerous. 

We think love can save people, that it can fix things, that it heals all prior wounds, but it doesn't.

I don't mean to sound as though I don't love love because I do.  I've just been hurt enough to know to use caution and to have realistic expectations.  Though a part of me deep down still wants to find that one person I can tell all my deep dark secrets to and be more relaxed and comfortable then I ever thought possible, to actually feel safe and loved and able to just let go of all the hurt.

Maybe one day...

I miss...

hearing someone I love say they love me


cuddling 


having someone to txt all the funny shit that happens at work to


sex 


someone to run errands with


someone to hold hands with during all those errand


making out

My coffee tastes like sweaty balls.

Dinner at work is always great.

for gina marie...

 

These are the wonderful earrings for Ms. Gina Marie.  I found them in a shop downtown that specializes in one of a kind pieces.  Now I'm in love with them!  I want my own pair.